Getting married again....

I remember a time when all I wanted was to get married, have two kids and live "happily ever after."  Well I did get married, at 18 years old, no less, and had my two kids.  Two great kids. Actually, they are men with families of their own now. The "happily ever after" didn't pan out, and the 38 year journey is one I wouldn't care to repeat, but the result of the union brought me more joy than words could ever express.  I don't want to come off sounding like the whole time being married was bad, because it wasn't. There were wonderful, happy moments of being new parents, watching them walk, talk and graduate high schools and colleges. Being young didn't factor into the divorce at all.  We were both very mature for our tender ages, but we started with nothing, grew into adults together, and then each  had different ideas of the definition of "happiness" was for that "ever after."

The time period during the divorce seemed endless, stressful, hateful, and utterly bitter-tasting.  I never thought I would make that same commitment again - ever.  Or as Taylor Swift said, "Never, ever, ever, ever."  However, a special individual dropped in my lap when I wasn't looking.  I was not especially thrilled at the timing, but I knew in my heart, that I would "never, ever, ever, ever" find a guy who would treat me like he did and make me feel how I waited a lifetime to feel - as though I was his #1.

This August, we are getting married.  After being together for 10 years, we have now decided to "make it legal."  Last week, we got our marriage license, yesterday, we picked out wedding bands.  We are getting closer and closer to the big day.  When the jeweler asked what we would like to have engraved on the rings, I knew immediately what I wanted mine to say -"#1."  With his wry sense of humor, my guy said, "I guess I'll  just have to be #2,: but of course, he ended up the same as me, since we both are each other's #1. 

For whoever reads this entry, I wish you the same feeling I was so fortunate to finally achieve - to find the person who makes you feel as if you are the most important thing in the universe to them.  It's a great feeling.